Lost Day: Dead Is Dead; Plus: A Bad Dream

Ben, however, is not dead. He is stripped of his power by the smoke monster (hello, Egyptian hieroglyphics!), his leadership of the Island conclusively given over to Locke. I wonder if he will be able to relinquish it with any grace.

I am shocked that I am about to type this, but here goes: I don’t think Ben lied every time he opened his mouth last night. Only about two-thirds the time. And his dread of going under the Temple, and his grief for Alex — those were real. Also true: his distinct crankiness following Locke around in the jungle, and irritation at Locke’s Zen certainty.

I am intrigued by the exchange between Ben and Sun last night, the one at the Others/Dharma compound. “Dead is dead,” Ben tells her.

Locke, however, is not dead, to all appearances. And he’s not Christian-ized, either; he clearly interacts with other people, his physical presence is not in doubt. He carries torches; he makes noise walking out of the jungle.

Is Locke Locke? What’s in that big metal box the Ajira Airlines survivors found? Looks like it could be a coffin, doesn’t it?

And what does lie in the shadow of the statue?


I’m sorry that I don’t have a lot of Lost today. I will try hard to write more for tomorrow, because I do have a lot of thoughts about it. I am haunted by a bad dream I had this morning, right before I woke up. Barring the dreams about losing my children, this was by far the worst dream I’ve ever had.

In it, my mother rejects me, utterly and completely. We are all at a wine tasting — my whole extended family. The dream takes place at Seven Springs, a resort we visit IRL every summer. In the dream, when I get to the tasting, my mother “starts in” on me, in a way she never has and never did IRL (in real life). “Are you going to read poetry?” she asks mockingly. When I tell her no, she says, “Good, because I don’t want to hear it.” But her comments escalate until I say, “Do you want me to leave? Do you want me to stop talking to you?” And she pretty much says, “Oh, yeah, get out of my life.” We yell at each other for awhile; then my dad shows up. He tries to get us to calm down, but he thinks it might be a good idea if I left, too. I go stomping off, in tears, realizing that I will never talk to my parents again, and that they want it that way.

I woke up relieved that it was just a dream, but very sad too that I would have such a terrible nightmare. What could that dream be about? Rejection of motherhood, or of my mother’s idea of motherhood? Rejection of myself as a writer — rejection of my dreams as a writer? Subconscious fallout from my sister’s graduation? I don’t know.

I am still feeling unsettled about it. And… well, lost.

Lost Day: What Happened, Happened


I was wrong.

Oh well. Kate and Sawyer — and Sayid, Juliet, and Jack, too, for that matter — pretty much directly cause The Purge. Good one, guys.

At least we get the judgement next week. Maybe he’ll die then.

I know it probably makes me sound bloodthirsty, but I have wanted Ben to bite it for a while now. I don’t like Ben — I think Michael Emerson does an amazing job of making Ben so devious and underhanded. Ben is a liar and he pursues his own agenda without thought to anyone else. I’m looking forward to next week, when it seems, he will get his comeuppance from the Island.

It’s interesting because looking over our cast of characters, I’m not sure, character-wise, whom I do like. I’ve never been one for tortured protagonists (i.e. Jack, Kate); and as much as I would enjoy seeing Sayid take his shirt off, the guy’s a cold-blooded killer. I was never a big fan of Sawyer, but at least he’s straightforward and uncomplicated (no, really!). I like the character he’s become this season; as he told Kate last night, “I’ve come a long way in three years.” Plus: dimples! I like Juliet this year, too, although I was struck by her pale-lipped confrontation with Jack last night. Here is a woman who after a long, long time has found love and happiness. And the O6 pretty much threaten that.

Locke: Nutter. Nutter with deep father issues.
Hurley: Love Hurley. He’s not exactly a hero type, but again, someone true to himself. His conversation with Miles was great last night.
Miles: Funny guy, but hasn’t done a lot this season except crack wise.
Sun: Creepy. Liked her clocking Ben two weeks ago.
Jin: I don’t have much a feel for Jin this season. He’s just kind of going about doing his own thing, listening to Sawyer. I think he’s very content, although he probably misses Sun. I think he’s secure in the knowledge that he is where he is supposed to be, and his wife and child are where they are supposed to be, and that’s that. And until Flight 316, that was that.
Desmond: I liked Desmond for his very fatalistic attitude. I hope he had a span of happiness, finally, with Penny. I think we find out what happened to them next week. I don’t think it’s good.
Daniel: Where’s Daniel? Besides off the deep end, I mean.

I miss Claire. I really miss Charlie. Did I leave out anyone?

A lot of questions were answered last night. Ben doesn’t die, and we see how the Island, in the form of Richard Alpert, turned him into one of the Others. That had to be The Temple, don’t you think? Alpert knew exactly what he was doing, too. The look on his face was like, “Well, if this works, I guess we’ll know who our next leader is.” In the words of Ms. Hawking: “God help us all.” We know what happened to Aaron. I’ll give Kate props for finally doing the right thing. Although, why does she tell Clementine’s mom (I’m sorry, her name escapes me) and Claire’s mom the real truth? Does she think they are going to keep the secret? Does she think that all that talk about keeping her friends “safe” is going to wash with people who weren’t on the Island?

So while I am not rooting for anyone on Lost, I have to admit to being deeply curious about what happens. I can understand frustration with the show. As DearDR put it last night, “It like they’re effing with me, which is okay, but now they are laughing about how they are effing with me.” He compared it to reading Lacan, which I took to mean: The smart guys are having a good chuckle over my struggle to keep up with this.

But I’m all in. I want to know what happens, I want to know who prevails and how.

And I want to see if Ben bites it.

Lost Day: He’s Our You

What many of us predicted, happened.

Sayid shot young Ben.

The question, however, remains: Does Sayid actually kill young Ben? This is what my husband kept asking as they were showing previews for next week.

1. The Island has magical healing powers, and dead men walk there (Christian Shepherd, John Locke). Maybe young Ben is only wounded; maybe the Hostiles will come out of the jungle and claim him and heal him. Maybe Ben will walk again.

2. Ben really dies in the past. And that changes the future.

Here’s what I think: First, remember that Ben didn’t actually cause the crash of Flight 815; he simply took advantage of it. The plane crashed because Desmond did not press the button that day when he was supposed to. I think Flight 815 goes down no matter if Ben dies in the past or not — John Locke is on that plane, and John Locke is supposed to come to the Island.

So, yeah, I think Sayid does actually kill young Ben. Along with bringing Locke to the Island, I think the Island takes advantage of certain other skill sets to “course correct” as Doc Jensen calls it. Ben was not supposed to ever be a leader of the Others/Hostiles; he was not supposed to purge the Dharma Initiative; pregnant women were not supposed to be dying in their second trimester.

(For a little bit last night, I thought maybe Sayid was going to kill Ben’s father instead of Ben — maybe try to “course correct” by trying to create a kinder, gentler Ben. But then I thought, “Nah.” He was pretty upset about shooting a kid, too, you could tell. Sayid: alternatively hot and cold blooded. We didn’t get him shirtless last night, but seeing as he bolts off into the jungle, I fully expect to see him running about in a loin cloth sometime early next season.)

So the Island gets wonky, and brings certain people to 1977 to make changes.

Which is not to say that the course is corrected at this point. We don’t actually know if Ben is dead, and even if he is, if he stays that way.

Now what?

I have no idea. It’s kind of fun to guess though!

Will Ben disappear from the future? Or will he simply be someone else — maybe one Henry Gale, who has nothing to do with the Island and knows nothing about it. How does no Ben affect the eventual survivors of Flight 815? How does no Ben affect Juliet? She will not be needed on the Island, if my theory is correct. Does Juliet get to lead a “normal” life in Seattle (Portland? I forget) with no Ben in the future? And what happens to our survivors in the past?

I think this is all going to lead us to the mysteriously missing Daniel Faraday. I think he is the key to all these questions about changing the future in the past.

One of my co-Losties thinks that Faraday is lost in a time loop, trying not to change things (i.e. Charlotte’s death) but inadvertently changing them all the same. I have the impression — and I’m not alone — that Faraday is the one who set up The Lamppost back in LA.

I don’t think we’ll get many answers until Daniel reenters the scene.

Quote of the night: “For three years, we haven’t had buses on fire. You people have been back one day!” — Sawyer

Lost Day: LaFleur

This was yet another episode that provokes more questions than theories, at least for me. And it was a lot more about character than usual as well.

I have never been on either the Sawyer or Jack side of the Sawyer/Jack equation. I don’t know if I’m a sucker for accents or what, but Sayid and Desmond were always my Island crushes.

However, a clean-shaven, center-hair parted, glasses- and jumpsuit-wearing, dimply-smiling Sawyer completely stole my heart last night. The best part was when he goes out to Horace’s “buddy with the eyeliner” — the ageless Richard Alpert — and instead of conning him actually tells him the truth, and wins the day. That was awesome.

Not so awesome: Kate’s return. I mentioned two weeks ago that I’m over Kate’s act — and I’m even more over it. Juliet is stronger than Kate, braver than Kate, and smarter than Kate. And she cannot win for losing. I never bought her “love” for Jack, but she and Sawyer seem to have something very real and very solid, and despite his little speech last night to Horace, it was obvious from his first sighting of Freckles at the end of the episode, three years is not enough time to get over someone.

Who is Amy’s baby? This may not matter as Ben’s going to come along and slaughter them all in a few years, but the question remains.
Where the heck was Daniel in the ’70s? My guess, based on the Season 5 premiere, is The Orchid.
How do they — do they? — get back to present time on the Island (permanently, I mean. They flash there at some point after Flight 316 goes down, and get shot at)? I guess that may also have something to do with Daniel being at The Orchid.

Here’s the biggie: Is Daniel right? It doesn’t matter what they do, what happens happens? (And didn’t your heart break a little bit for him when he saw the little-girl Charlotte?) It seems to me (and to Doc Jensen, too) that a lot of what many of these characters are striving to do is change things. Ben, especially, seems hell bent on making things conform to his desires. I don’t know if time-travel comes into it (I love Jensen’s idea of Ben as the bad shepherd) — or how it comes into it — but you’ve got five characters in the ’70s who weren’t there before. Were they? What’s paradox mean again?

As just one example: If Juliet was not in the ’70s the first time Amy gave birth, do she and the baby die? Did we meet Amy when Ben as a 12-year-old comes to the Island? Or is Horace a widower at that time? Now that Juliet has saved Amy and the baby, do they have to die a different way (ala Charlie), or has Juliet changed the future?

And how long do we have to wait to find out??

Okay, that’s all I have time for. Have fun leaving comments and reading Doc Jensen. He’s the shizznit.

Lost Day: This Place is Death



I’m a little short on the theories today, I must admit.

Although I was correct (too bad I didn’t actually write this theory down already!): John moves the donkey wheel. So… He’s not supposed to go back. Neither is Ben, as we know. Now John’s dead, and Ben sure seems determined to head back to the Island — with John’s body to boot. At the end of the episode, Mrs. Hawking (I think I’ve been spelling her name wrong) seems inclined to send him, too.

Okay, so who was Charlotte’s fit about? Sun? Did she actually say “Don’t bring Sun back” or “Don’t bring your wife back”? She may have been referring to Ji Yeon. The likelihood of Sun bringing Ji Yeon to the Island seems pretty slim anyway. And: was that Charlotte having that fit? Was it the voice of the Island or some other entity from the Island?

And what is up with Rousseau? What is the smoke monster? A possessor? “You’re not Robert,” Rousseau raves. “That thing changed you.”

I was really touched when Sawyer and Jin found each other and hugged. I’m clearly turning into a Lost sap.

Lost brings back the humor! I am loving this season just for that. Locke to Christian Shepherd: “Can you help me up?” Beat. Christian to Locke, “No.”

I also liked how Sayid just walks away from the Oceanic 6 “reunion”. He clearly wants no part of this scene. Ben, for once, was clearly at a loss. He was so close to having everyone together, but now he’s down four: Kate, Aaron, Hurley, and Sayid. Also, I think his tantrum in the car was staged.

Incidentally, Sawyer without a shirt is all well and good, but I would like a little more of Sayid without a shirt. If that can be arranged, please. I mean, the man looks fine in a suit and all, but bring back the black tank top!

Sorry about the lack of theories and only having more questions. I will try to get myself together better for next week.

Oh, and RIP, Charlotte Staples Lewis.

Well, you know, she’ll probably be back, one way or another.

Edited to add: Doc Jensen tells me something I missed about Charlotte’s dad. He says it was revealed in Season 4 that her dad is Dave Lewis from Dharma. So, shoot down my Widmore theory. Although someone somewhere said Widmore may be Daniel’s dad. He’s so very protective of Penny, though, I somewhat doubt this. But, you know, it’s Lost. Anything is possible.

Lost Day: “The Little Prince”

First of all, I have to tell you The Little Price by Antoine de Saint-Exupery is my favorite book of all time.

Okay, now that we’ve dispensed with the pleasantries, here are my theories.

1. Back to last week: I think I missed that final scene with Desmond and Penny. I watched it closely last night, and you know what? I think she’s fooling Desmond into thinking she wants nothing to do with the Island. After all, she spent three years looking for Desmond, therefore looking for the Island, and what happens to people looking for the Island? They become obsessed. I think Penny wants to find the Island, still. I do think she may not be 100 percent sure of her motivation.

Either that, or she’s working for Daddy.

2. The new Sun is creeping me out. How could Kate leave Aaron, presumably the Little Prince of the title, with her? Doesn’t she notice how dead her eyes look? Seriously, every time Sun is on screen I shudder. The gun was no surprise. For the record, I think she’s sent the lawyers after Kate. I know what Ben said at the end of the episode last night, but you know what? Ben’s a liar. Does it profit him for Kate to think he sicc’ed lawyers on her and Aaron? Well, no, not really. But Kate sees him as a bad guy, and what’s the point of arguing?

As of last night’s episode, five of the Oceanic 6 were in the same spot: Jack, Sun, Kate, Aaron, and Sayid. Plus Ben. How does Ben keep them all together, pick up Hurley from jail, and reclaim Locke’s body? Or is Locke’s body in that van that Ben and Sayid are driving? And how is he supposed to find the Island within 70 hours when others — Penny, Widmore, Jack, Charlotte — have been searching for it for so long? Oh, right, Ms. Hawkins has pinpointed it with that pendulum thingy. My other questions still stand. (For the record, I hadn’t read anything about last night’s episode at the time of posting.)

3. Miles was born on the Island too. This actually is posited at several sites — that he is the baby at the beginning of the Season 5 premiere, “True Lies”. I think once the group on the Island gets to the Orchid, you’re going to see Miles, watching from behind a bush, see Dr. Pierre Chang (known affectionately around here as P.F. Chang), and say, “Dad?”

4. When Daniel mentioned something about exposure affecting the predisposition toward Time Travel Sickness (TSS, as Doc Jensen calls it), I thought he meant that the Island offered a measure of immunity. Meaning, the longer you were on the Island, the less likely you were going to be afflicted with TSS. I have it backwards, as shown by Juliet getting a nosebleed at the end of “The Little Prince”. The longer you’ve been exposed to the Island the more likely it is that you will get TSS. We know Charlotte was born there, which is why she’s been so affected. Now it seems that Miles was born there, too, which as I’ve said is a popular theory already. Daniel was not born there. Even if he is Ellie’s son (and Ellie is Ms. Hawkins), she left before he was born. And who is Daniel’s father? Widmore? That would make Charlotte and Daniel (in my theory at least) siblings — because I think she’s Widmore’s daughter. So that’s a little ewww.

This isn’t a theory, just commentary: Jack, Jack, Jack. Dude, you have to learn to let go. You don’t have to fix everything. Let’s contrast three characters here:

Jack: The Man of Science, the control freak, the reluctant leader, the fixer. He’s got to make everything right, as evidenced last night by him going to talk to Claire’s mother. The problem with Jack’s approach that he blunders in without thinking; he operates neither with knowledge nor by instinct. He’s focused on being the hero, making things okay, but he is met with puzzled looks and/or frustration. Jack unwittingly shows his hand too soon, and gets stumped or set back.

Ben: The Planner. Ben never shows his cards. He said it himself: “I always have a plan.” Ben has plotted his every single move. He has access to information that no one else does. He is moving everyone around like pieces on a chess board — exactly what he’s been doing since he showed up in Season 2 as Henry Gale. He is also utterly and completely doing everything he does for the benefit of none other than Benjamin Linus. He only cares for himself. Especially now that Alex is dead.

Locke: The Man of Faith. Locke believes that everything he does is to benefit the Island. He operates on instinct; he listens to his gut; and above all, he simply believes. He believes in miracles, he believes that everything happens for a reason. He does not question. He is a man of destiny. Of course, he’s dead right now in ‘real time’ (I keep forgetting that what is happening on the Island, technically speaking, is happening three years in the past — kind of — right after the Oceanic 6 are rescued.) So I’m not sure how that’s working for him.

Oh, and Jin’s alive! Yeah, I’m not really surprised by that. I am a little bit curious how he’s survived since the boat blew up. And is he traveling in the same times as the other survivors?

Lost Day: “Jughead”

My theories of the week: Charles Widmore moved the island once. That’s why he’s no longer on it. I think I mentioned that last week.

My Widmore/Charlotte theory may have taken a hit, with Widmore’s impassioned pleading to Desmond to just take Penny away again. But we’ll see. And whose address do you think he gave Desmond, really?

I feel like everyone is lying in the episode, about one thing or another. Maybe the writers are giving us a lot of misdirection? That would be par for the course.

I thought the same thing Doc Jensen thought: Daniel blurted out that he loved Charlotte to try to become her constant. But Charlotte’s not really time traveling in her consciousness, so I’m not sure that’s going to work. I tend to think along the lines of some of my co-Losties, that Charlotte is actually disappearing from the past (as one of them called it, “Marty McFly Syndrome”).

I liked “Jughead” especially for its humor (“How old is Richard anyway?” “Old.”), but I am not pleased about the introduction of the gun-toting new character “Ellie”. Because, let’s face it, Lost does not need new characters. Although, of course, Ellie is possibly someone whom we’ve already met, only 50 years younger. The mysterious Mrs. Hawkins? Or maybe she’s Penny’s mother — whom we haven’t met, have we? Or both.

Finally, I know everyone’s all oogy over Des and Pen naming their boy Charlie, but remember, Pen’s father is Charles, too.

And I’m not sure anyone noticed, but Charlie (Dominic Monahan) died the way Desmond said he would, but Claire didn’t get on any helicopter and get rescued. Where is Claire?

Don’t forget to check the pros and the wiki. They do synopsis and everything!


Side note 1: And now DearDR thinks my washer is leaking. Wait, didn’t I count three things already? Somebody’s changing the rules.


Side note 2: Good things: I have Friday and Monday off. The Steelers are in the Super Bowl, and I have a babysitter. And, finally, it’s the day of the Burgh Mom’s dinner. Thank goodness!

Lost Day: Season 5 Premiere, “Because You Left” and “True Lies”

[Spoiler Alert: For anyone reading this who does watch Lost, if you haven’t watched the Season 5 premiere yet — first, WTF?? — don’t read this until you do.]

I am not a big TV watcher, never have been. I have even gone years without a television in my life. The only thing I made a point of watching were Steelers games.

Over the years, I have become dedicated to a show or two. I watched ER for years — I think I started in Season 2 or 3 and watched until they killed off Mark Green. I’ve always liked the original CSI, but I haven’t watched regularly since they broke Grissom’s heart. I did watch William Petersen’s final episode, though. Heroes Season 1 was AWESOME, but I petered out on Season 2. I have it on DVD, but I haven’t gotten into it yet.

I discovered Lost on DVD, and that’s how we watched Seasons 1 and 2. Season 3 we (DearDR and I) watched in real time, which after watching it on DVD was frustrating — all those danged commercials! The Season 3 finale was the most mind-blowing thing I have ever experienced on television. (Then again, we have never had cable.) We started watching Season 4 in real time, too, but then DearDR missed a couple of episodes, and vowed not to watch it until it came out on DVD.

As a result, I decided not to watch the finale until we had it on DVD.

I made it right under the wire, too, finally seeing “There’s No Place Like Home, Part 2” on Tuesday night.

If you are not a fan of Lost at this point, I’m not going to try to convert you. Yes, it is confusing. Yes, there are a lot of characters. Yes, it’s a sci-fi television show.

And it is the best thing on television ever. Except for Steelers Super Bowls.

Lost has its own Wiki. It has its own obsessive columnists at Time Magazine and Entertainment Weekly. Hell, Stephen King loves this show. And we all know how I feel about Stephen King.

After reading a lot of the theories, I have a few of my own. So Thursday is going to be Lost Posting Day (I needed to start coming up with themes anyway if I’m going to do this Blog365 thing. Other days are still pending…)

I get chills thinking about Doc Jensen’s theory about the dead man. Who is it? Could be Christian Shepherd; could be Locke. I think it may end up being Ben. He’s not dead yet, but Sun seemingly has it out for him (Sun is a bad guy this season; losing your husband will do that do you), and she is — seemingly, again — teaming up with Widmore. And Ben’s off the island. Last season he said he couldn’t go back. But doesn’t it look like he’s going to try? Maybe the Island will kill him if he comes back. Hence all the talk about not raising ‘him’, and not bringing ‘him’ back.

My other current pet theory: Charlotte is Widmore’s daughter, Penny’s half-sister. Here’s why I think that: We know that Widmore is obsessed with the Island. Because he was there? Maybe he moved it once, and that’s why he can’t get back. Hints were dropped in Season 4 that Charlotte was born on the Island — that’s she’s been there and had been trying to get back for years.

I think when Ben threatens to kill Widmore’s daughter in return for Alex’s murder, he’s talking about Charlotte, not Penny. And Widmore says, “You’ll never find her” because he knows that Ben is off the Island because he moved it, and he cannot go back. Widmore knows Ben won’t find the Island because he, Widmore, hasn’t been able to get back there since he moved it.

But also, because Ben moved the island, Charlotte is dying. So he gets to kill her after all.

Okay, that’s all for now. Go read Doc Jenson or the guy from Time. They are pros, with very detailed thought-out theories.

But these are mine, for now.