Random Thoughts: Cranky Version

1. I was going to post a picture of what Monkey and I did Saturday, but my camera battery conked out, and I have to take it all the way out to charge it. So, look for that later this week.

2. I started doing laundry at 9:30 at night! So much for getting to bed before 10:30 p.m. I would have just let it sit in the dryer, but it’s a new shirt, and I have to minimize ironing. Because I’m bad at ironing.

3. I bought some new spring clothes and shoes (J.C. Penney’s has some amazing sales right now), and it snowed Sunday night. Sorry.

4. It appears that Bun is afraid of the dark. Unfortunately she is also afraid of the shadows created by her night light. It’s making for some interesting — and long, drawn out — bed times. And she’s been waking up around 2 a.m., needing some attention. Not much, but anything getting me up at 2 a.m. is not fun.

5. I am ready for it to be Friday on Tuesday. That is not good for morale.


On a non-cranky note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, N. Sorry for shouting, but you’re all the way in California now, and I wanted to make sure you heard me.

Boy I wish I had some digital pictures of the two of us! Especially from high school.

Anyway, have a great day, my friend. Two more years to Vegas.

Flip Side

We didn’t know each other very well. We only had a best friend in common.

You were the best friend who lived in her neighborhood. I was the best friend from birth, because our parents were close friends.

I admit to being jealous of you over the years. I was a selfish friend, and I wanted her all to myself, especially when we were all girls.

I know very little of your life as an adult, but N remained a close and true friend to you, as she did to me. I know you faced difficult decisions and a serious illness.

You don’t need me to tell you this, but you did the right thing. You were braver than I could be. You were braver than I was. Stronger and more true.

As you know, N is moving, going to Palo Alto. In theory, as we haven’t seen much of each other since marrying and starting our families, you may think this is no big deal. But knowing she has been in Columbus or Chautauqua has been comforting. It was easy to think, “Well, I can just get in a car and see her” even if it only happened a handful of times. But now she’s going clear across the country, which means plane tickets and plane rides and 3000 miles instead of 300.

You have taken a much longer journey, have left N and all of your friends and family much, much further behind than a mere cross-country uprooting could encompass or compare to.

N misses you, of course. And part of what she misses of you is the “other-side” that you played to our coin — the coin that was you and me. We were the “best friends for life” that N always had in her pocket.

I didn’t know you well, but I will miss you too. Miss you for your son. Miss you for our best friend.

I hope you found peace while you were still here. I hope you find rest.

“For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks, the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.”
— Rainer Maria Rilke