Disordered Thinking

Wednesday night is what I consider an “off” night. That means, in general, we don’t have a soccer practice, and I don’t have to do baths (obviously, the two are related). Often I dump M in the bath anyway because he manages to get a little dirty and/or by 7:15 I need to occupy him in one place until bedtime.

Plus, California Baby Calming Bath Bubbles.

This past Wednesday night, I cooked All The Things.

While my children played outside for about half an hour, I started slow cooker fried rice, easy peasy dinner pie, and considered also baking a pizza (premade). I fed the kids peas, tofu, and leftover rice. I made a salad. I also put the dishes from the dishwasher away.

I didn’t sit down to eat until 7:30.

This is not how I cook during the week, and the whole time I was doing it, I was wondering WHY I was doing it. But I couldn’t stop. I had to cook, and I had to cook those specific things.

And now I have an appointment on Monday with a psychologist.

So there ya go.

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2 thoughts on “Disordered Thinking

  1. Much love to you, lady. Sometimes these bursts of productivity come from nowhere. Unfortunately you then sink down again and castigate yourself for not continuing a trend. Hang in there and I’m really glad to hear you’re going to see someone.

  2. I think so much frustration comes from just NEVER having enough time to finish a task. So when you find time you feel like you have to overcompensate. I know the feeling well too 🙂 So so glad you have an appt. to see someone! Much love and hugs to you mama!

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