Random Thoughts: The What the Heck is Going On Around Here Edition

I’m feeling very discouraged, so I haven’t been posting.

I am feeling discouraged about the slow rate of change in my life right now. Here it is the end of March, and I am not where I want to be. I hadn’t intended to make big huge changes in my life this year — except for one. And I can’t really talk about that here because: dooce.


Here are some not good things:

1. Flora had pinkeye. Twice. Today is her last day of drops. Putting drops in a 7yo’s eyes is not fun. Chocolate has been the most motivating bribe thus far.

2. I can’t figure out if I’m getting sick or not. Since Saturday, I’ve been feeling pretty crappy: sore throat, achy ears. I have pretty bad allergies that just seem to be getting worse each year. With the early warm weather this spring, they have started sooner than usual, too. Allergy meds and eyedrops, plus pain relievers, are keeping me going. I hope I don’t have an ear infection or strep or something like that. If I’m going to be sick, I need to be definitively sick (fever, can’t move). Because otherwise, I just ignore my body.

Healthy, I know.

3. The mess of my house. I need to get on top of it. Stat. (Again.)

4. I bought a pack of cigarettes. I have since gotten rid of them, but I’m feeling pretty bad that I bought them. And smoked three. One on each of the past three nights.

On the plus side:

1. Saturday night, I had such a fun girls’ night out. A group of us went to see The Hunger Games, and then out to dinner at Bocktown. I cannot say enough good things. I could RAVE about the movie — in sum, aside from being extremely entertaining, it was the best adaptation of a book I’ve ever seen — and that’s something I’m resisting the urge to do. I don’t know why I’m resisting it? I mean, The Hunger Games is pretty much *every where* right now, so I guess I don’t see the point to NOT saying my piece. Except maybe everyone is sick of everyone else’s opinion anyway. I don’t know — this may be part of my ennui and discouragement.

I could also RAVE about sitting around a table in Bocktown with a bunch of friends, eating good food, drinking good beer, and laughing our butts off. But, really, what else can I say? It was a good — nay, a *great* night.

2. Kate is funny. This isn’t news, but, let me present two Sunday night conversations:

Kate: Is Easter coming soon?
Me: Easter is in two weeks.
Kate: Yay! Easter will be here, and we can eat pee-pees!
Me: I think you mean Peeps.
(cue giggling fit)

(As we are watching the hockey game.)
Kate: Which team are we?
Me: We are the black team. The Penguins.
Kate: Go, Penguins! What’s the white team called?
Me: The New Jersey Devils.
Kate: That’s a full mouth. Can I just call them Devils?
Me: Yes, yes you can.

3. Michael said, “book” last night. He also nods his head now, which is hilarious. It’s kind of a cross between “yes” and headbanging.

I guess I’m kind of in “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything” mode. It seems wrong to be so down in the dumps — it’s not as if anything is really wrong (knock on wood).

I need a swift kick in the pants. Or maybe some pictures of puppies.

How are you feeling these days? Up or down?

15 thoughts on “Random Thoughts: The What the Heck is Going On Around Here Edition

  1. Ahem. You know how I feel. 😉

    Hang in there. I know how you feel about the house. It’s a CONSTANT pain in the ass trying to keep on top of things. You have to give yourself a little bit of a break though because your youngest is still only 16 months old. It’s HARD to get anything done while he’s awake because you have to be eagle-eyed at all times. My house was a disaster when J was that age. Perpetually a disaster. It’s only now that I’m starting to get on top of things.

    That Kate – she’s going places. Love her.

    Great to see you Saturday! Did the carseat fit?

    • haven’t installed the car seat yet, but watched video of how to do it. Should fit fine. Although it’s time to admit we need a bigger car.

      On Sunday, I sat on my couch and watched all three children demolish my front room. I mean it wasn’t even worth trying to get them to clean as they went. When it was over, and time to clean, I took the opportunity to purge some toys (consignment!). But, yeah, it’s never-ending.

  2. Know what I loved about Sat night? Not one of us trashed talked another female or husband.

    We need to do it more often 🙂

    • This is the second time someone has expressed that sentiment after a gathering I’ve been at. It shocks me that it’s so different at other girls nights out because it would never occur to me to spend my time out doing that.

      • I just know that I have been making a personal mission to stop the negativity and girl/husband bashing. Maybe I have been hanging out with all the wrong women, hence inviting myself along with the right ones 😉

  3. Been having a rough couple weeks myself. Case in point – only last night did I find the unopened birthday note you sent me, at the bottom of the mail basket. Thank you so much, it cheered me up, so it was actually well-timed. I saw the Hunger Games by myself, having no group of girls here, which is in itself depressing – glad you got out.

  4. I’m feeling down, too. And writing less. But the “pee-pees” cracked me up! I needed that 🙂

    I hope things get better for both of us, and soon. I keep thinking sunshine and warm weather has got to help?

    • Last night, I discovered another factor: sleep. I fell asleep on the couch at 9 p.m. I think more than possibly being sick, my body just needed a good long night’s sleep! Feeling better today. ((hugs)) to you, and, yes, I hope good weather helps lifts our spirits!

  5. Lemme give a shout-out to all your peeps!

    I may go see the Hunger Games this weekend, just by myself. (Pinky would hate it ‘cuz there’s killing and stuff.)

    Hope you get back on your good feet…

  6. I feel you, RPM. I told someone the other day that I really just want to run away from home! sounds like you need a break…a recharge day!!
    the pee pees comment killed me too 🙂 Love to all your chickies!!

    • I just need, actually, time at home to get a couple things accomplished. Our schedules have been brutal lately, and with the weather having been so nice, containing the kids has been impossible. Michael has discovered he really, really (really, really) likes to be outside.

      Yeah, Kate just about slayed me. Once I corrected her and she realized what she had said, we giggled for about 5 minutes. It was hilarious.

  7. I’ve been in kind of a funk lately with some things… not sure why. Blargh. Just trying to enjoy the days/evenings with the kids and of course, the lovely night I had on Saturday! It was great hanging out with you and the others, I had a blast!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s