Lost Day: Dead Is Dead; Plus: A Bad Dream

Ben, however, is not dead. He is stripped of his power by the smoke monster (hello, Egyptian hieroglyphics!), his leadership of the Island conclusively given over to Locke. I wonder if he will be able to relinquish it with any grace.

I am shocked that I am about to type this, but here goes: I don’t think Ben lied every time he opened his mouth last night. Only about two-thirds the time. And his dread of going under the Temple, and his grief for Alex — those were real. Also true: his distinct crankiness following Locke around in the jungle, and irritation at Locke’s Zen certainty.

I am intrigued by the exchange between Ben and Sun last night, the one at the Others/Dharma compound. “Dead is dead,” Ben tells her.

Locke, however, is not dead, to all appearances. And he’s not Christian-ized, either; he clearly interacts with other people, his physical presence is not in doubt. He carries torches; he makes noise walking out of the jungle.

Is Locke Locke? What’s in that big metal box the Ajira Airlines survivors found? Looks like it could be a coffin, doesn’t it?

And what does lie in the shadow of the statue?


I’m sorry that I don’t have a lot of Lost today. I will try hard to write more for tomorrow, because I do have a lot of thoughts about it. I am haunted by a bad dream I had this morning, right before I woke up. Barring the dreams about losing my children, this was by far the worst dream I’ve ever had.

In it, my mother rejects me, utterly and completely. We are all at a wine tasting — my whole extended family. The dream takes place at Seven Springs, a resort we visit IRL every summer. In the dream, when I get to the tasting, my mother “starts in” on me, in a way she never has and never did IRL (in real life). “Are you going to read poetry?” she asks mockingly. When I tell her no, she says, “Good, because I don’t want to hear it.” But her comments escalate until I say, “Do you want me to leave? Do you want me to stop talking to you?” And she pretty much says, “Oh, yeah, get out of my life.” We yell at each other for awhile; then my dad shows up. He tries to get us to calm down, but he thinks it might be a good idea if I left, too. I go stomping off, in tears, realizing that I will never talk to my parents again, and that they want it that way.

I woke up relieved that it was just a dream, but very sad too that I would have such a terrible nightmare. What could that dream be about? Rejection of motherhood, or of my mother’s idea of motherhood? Rejection of myself as a writer — rejection of my dreams as a writer? Subconscious fallout from my sister’s graduation? I don’t know.

I am still feeling unsettled about it. And… well, lost.

3 thoughts on “Lost Day: Dead Is Dead; Plus: A Bad Dream

  1. I don’t know what is up with me…I am not feeling LOST:P I am still watching…not walking away. Last night was kinda boring…and I’m not into the new characters. Get me back into it…

  2. @kelly, thanks I needed that.

    @napwarden (caveat: this is long!), Well, you have to remember why you signed up for the show in the first place. The sci-fi aspects? The characters? The mystery? It’s all still there, but we are moving toward a conclusion.

    This week’s episode answered a lot of questions — which I know bums out some people because they know we’re moving toward a conclusion. This week’s episode, for me, was extremely satisfying because it finally revealed a weakness or two in Ben Linus. First, we know that he can’t do what he is supposed to do (or what he thinks he’s supposed to do) if suddenly a child is involved: couldn’t kill Rousseau, couldn’t kill Penny. This may actually be a redeeming feature. Second, we know he’s lost control on the Island — stripped of his leadership power as decreed by the smoke monster (who may or may not be Richard Alpert). How is he going to deal with that?

    And there is always: What happens next? This is the hook — it’s why sometimes we stick out a movie we aren’t crazy about, or read a book two hours past our bedtime. Sometimes there’s a payoff, sometimes not. I have full faith in the writers of Lost that they have a payoff in mind, and it’s not going to be Ben Linus or John Locke waking up from a dream. Know what I mean?

    How are the O6 and Left Behinders going to get back to the right time? Are they going to leave the Island again? What, exactly, is the Island? And that weird question that the new chickie survivor asks before she cleans Lapidus’ clock: what lies in the shadow of the statue? There’s some bad Island mojo going on.

    As far as the new characters: Ceasar was pretty unceremoniously blown away, so I wouldn’t expect too many of them to be around too much longer.

    It’s kind of like rekindling the romance in your marriage — totally worth it. 🙂

    hope you don’t mind the long reply. I’m such a total fan of this show. Although I wouldn’t encourage people to start watching now, if you’ve been hooked from Season 1, and didn’t give up in Season 3, you’ve got to stay for the end. I think so, anyway.

    thanks for the comment! I hope I’ve convinced you to stick it out.


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