What NOW?

Holy crap.

I got the job.

I’m freaking out a little bit. I’m glad I got the job. Very glad.

A lot of things will change around here. They will have to change. I am apprehensive, nervous, scared.

I’m scared. And happy.

It reminds me of a scene from Gerald’s Game by Stephen King (you knew he would pop up again sooner or later, right?). It’s from the point of view of a child of 10 or 11. She is wondering about adults and their emotions. She compares the way adults seem to mix emotions to mixing up your food in crazy combinations. For example, gravy over ice cream, or cherry pie with peas and carrots.

It fits. How can I feel so many things at once?? Argh.

But mostly happy. Mostly good feelings. I guess that’s the most important part, right?