These Are the Days

Because what one finds relaxing these days is different.

For example, only having one child as one runs errands. And I had the quiet one, at that. The Bun one, who is content with her binky and her new Uniqua doll from Barnes & Noble. The one who will walk in circles around me as I exchange clothes at Old Navy. The one who will share my spinach and feta pretzel, and talk to me. I’m not sure I understood, but I think she was saying, “Hey, mommy! It is nice to have you all to myself for a change. That other one is noisy! Always chatting, or screaming in the car when the sun gets in her eyes, or yelling, ‘Look at that!’ while you’re driving.”

It’s nice to only have one child to follow or feed or buy a treat for (thank goodness for gift cards). And also have the one child who will smile at everyone and hug legs of people who don’t belong to her. “Hey,” I know she explained at some point during that lunch, “everybody looks the same from the knees down.”

What makes us relax, what vacation days are like, they are different now.

I think I am also holding onto these things because things may be changing. Some job interviews have gone well. And these contented hours I spend now, will be hours I seek, hours we need to get, hours that will have to be scheduled. And while that kind of change makes me apprehensive, I know that it is a change we need.

(Oh, sorry about the lack o’ recipe this Monday. I haven’t tried anything new in a while, so I wanted to wait until I had a couple stored up to share.)

4 thoughts on “These Are the Days

  1. This is a great post. We will hopeful be having a baby in the near future (not started trying yet but soon). I feel bad that I will have to continue to work (stupid law school loans) and will have to schedule time to be with my child. I guess there are a lot out there with the same concern, worry, and sadness.

  2. I’ve been on both sides of the fence, and I can honestly say I spend more time “enjoying” Alexis when I work than when I don’t. I don’t know how it happens, I just know that it is true. Perspective, perhaps?

  3. Andrea and BBM: This will be my first go-round as full-time work, full-time mommy of two. I did it for a short time with Monkey, but I had a lot of help. The help is less available these days, and I understand. I am just keeping my fingers crossed, and my eyes on a goal: financial viability! I know the girls will get what they need.

    ciao,
    rpm

  4. I will be rooting for you. Be sure to NOT be hard on yourself when you look around after the first couple of weeks and realize that not everything is perfect. Some things will have to slide. The kids and the job can’t slide, so don’t stress over the dust bunnies that may collect under the sofa. You guys will be fine!

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