Breast is Best

But a pain in the ass

I knew before I had children that I would breastfeed. It just seemed like the natural thing to do. That’s what boobs are for, after all.

And while I generally don’t mind breastfeeding, there are times that I definitely do. Fortunately, for my babies anyway, I think formula is way too expensive to be used 100% of the time. Breastmilk is FREE. Or, depending on what you’re spending, not.

For example, time. In terms of time, nursing is not cheap. I discovered that I could read during nursing with Monkey. And since reading is my all time favorite thing to do (to the point of dysfunction/addiction), this was fine with me. With the Bun, I prefer DVD watching to reading. Which is why I re-joined Netflix. I have also discovered that I can actually almost sleep while nursing Bun. It’s more like dozing, but it’s definitely better to half-sleep than not sleep at all. I just wake up all the way at some point, rearrange Bun and I in the bed when she is done, and fall all the way back to sleep.

Reading, watching TV and almost sleeping: the short list of things you can do while nursing. Also, reading to Monkey, talking with DearDR… that’s about it.

I cannot go shopping while nursing. I cannot clean while nursing. Cannot do laundry while nursing. And that list could go on and on.

Maybe breastfeeding is a little more expensive than I thought. But I think I’ll keep it up awhile longer anyway. At the same time, I am looking forward to when Bun starts solid foods.

But sometimes really slow

The other issue I am having this time around with nursing is that there are times that Bun just wants to eat and eat and eat. I get a little impatient with this. Is she not eating enough? Am I not producing enough? Can I just give her a bottle of formula after fours hours of on-and-off the boob? (The answer to this last question is yes, already.)

We had a morning like this today. I wanted to get up, do my morning thing, feed her, get showered and get out the door. It didn’t quite work out that way. I think we finally left the house around 11:30 a.m.

And then she was the perfect sleeping baby in the car, in the store, and home again. I even had time to unpack the groceries and eat lunch. So maybe the marathon sessions, although exasperating at times, are working in my favor.

Upon reflection, I realize that the nights that she eats from 7 p.m. to 10 or 11 p.m. (on and off), we do get quite a bit of sleep until the next feeding.

The only thing I am still trying to figure out is how to pump to store milk and then still feed her. It seems that when I pump, the next time I feed Bun she does not get filled up. My sis-in-law#2 (husband’s sis), a champion nurser herself, suggested that I was pumping so much that I wasn’t replenishing the hindmilk — the good, fat milk — that Bun needed to be satisfied. She suggested pumping right before the feeding, a thought I cringe at because pumping is hell on my nipples.

To do at home
As a final note on breastfeeding, I will say while I advocate for the freedom to breastfeed anywhere you like (discreetly, of course), I will add that I am excruciatingly self-conscious about nursing in public. I would just prefer not to, thank you.

But if you want to, go ahead! I don’t even care if you flash me. It’s nothing I haven’t seen before.

4 thoughts on “Breast is Best

  1. Wow. All I can say is, that is EXACTLY how I felt about nursing my son. I breastfed him for 6 months and you have just written down everything I ever felt…my friends who nursed their babies never experienced what I did, when my son literally nursed every evening from 7:30 or 8:00 until 11 or 11:30. They kept suggesting (in roundabout ways) that maybe I was doing something wrong. Um, NO, that’s just how my son was, and I’m SO glad to hear that you went through the same thing. And then there were times, of course, when he went through growth spurts and would be on my boobs for days, and I would either be in tears, or I’d make up little songs such as “Get off my t*ts”!

    My baby girl is now due April 20th. I know every baby is different, and I’m really hoping she is not as attached to the boob as my son was. If she is, I can almost guarantee I will be weaning her before 6 months…I just cannot see myself going through the same thing while also chasing a 20 month toddler around!!!

  2. Debbie R: I know, it’s exhausting! Especially in the evenings when I also have a 2-year-old to tend to. My first daughter did not eat like this (then again, she did keep my up all hours of the night, which Bun does not do). I am now a firm believer in the pacifier! It really seems to comfort Bun, and it’s much easier on the boobs!

    Good luck with your next baby.

    And thanks for stopping by!


  3. I have posted over and over about my troubles with breastfeeding. We have to supplement, which is expensive, but I guess it’s less expensive than exclusively feeding formula. And I HATE pumping at work. So tedious. I could go on and on. I’m glad to hear other women who don’t paint breastfeeding as all rosy. With my first child I was having such a difficult time that I felt like I was on a slippery slope. I was so exhausted that I wasn’t hapy and thought I could become depressed. I stopped nursing her. And I stand by the decisions I have made. My son is almost 6 months now and we’re still nursing (but he’s started biting!) and he’s eating us out of house and home with formula and baby food. And it’s harder nursing a seond child with a toddler to interact with and try to entertain.

    I’ve rambled incoherently!

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